As the sun sets in the west I walk down the path of self, taking care that I never falter nor fail at searching for the love that I left so long ago. I take Vows and Oaths but still I fall short of the Lasting peace of mind. Sadness darkens me everywhere I turn and yet I run to where the Sun shines but always missing its beams of light as it leaves the horizon. How cruel can fate be one may ask as Destiny beckons me to unknown places in the Life Cycle. Yet I strive to go on within these confines and still I am lost. Dying daily inside knowing that no matter how much I try I still fail. Pain and Misery are my friends as well as Sadness and Loneliness. No chance of living with dreams of a better tomorrow. For sorrow has become my bedfellow. Sulking and Desires of the life that I should have are still out of my grasp but I will someday Soon acquire the beauty of my new body.
Being alone fraught with demons that only show when the sun is gone and darkness is around. The demons of Self pain and Pity have given me company many a night when alone with sorrows. Crying out in the midst of a crowded room but yet not heard by the ones around me. Silenced by shear fear of being alone. My heart becomes blackened by thoughts of rampage and turmoils that are still yet to show their ugly face in the dark recesses of my soul. Screaming from the Pain that is Drowning my soul and blackening my heart, numbing my mind. Love lost and Sadness gained I pity myself into a stooper where like a drunken soul sitting in an alley having lost all things of this present life. Guided by Chance I once more beckon to the Sun to bring me out of my misery.
The Sun, my Saviour, my Happiness only comes when I am tired and sleeping from nights of unrest and turn moral. Lost Love has my heart harden towards the ungainly road ahead of me with no emotional relevancy. Peace! There is none for I am without desire to obtain righteous selflessness of false Love. The Soul is sadden at what it sees and what it knows for I am its Master and I have chosen it to be my slave. The War between Good and Evil has always been and it will always be to the end of all time. The Vows and Oaths I swear to all men has been weighed upon the scale of Life and it causes me to fail and to become a ghost of things that could have been. O Regret where is your medicine to numb the pain that you caused me? Life is full of all things but Destiny has tricks to turn away from real happiness and Love.
Dreaming of acquiring a new body with beauty of an Angel is my waking dream but foolish Reality keep knocking me back into its grasp. I, one day will achieve my dream and win over my Destiny and Fate forever. Dreams of the future is already here to stay for I will overcome my demons to find Love and Happiness forever. My burden will be forgiven and all that had darken my heart will be lifted towards a vortex of emptiness. O how I worship the sun who is my Saviour in this nightmare of reality. Dropping all hope of a better tomorrow the demons arise and claim my soul and I become their slave. Sorrow and Sadness become my real face in reality and my voice becomes lost in the drowning of my soul into a well of regrets and pain.
Jul 29, 2013
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